I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know what I want my life to be. What is it all for? I don’t know.

I feel alone. Not in the sense that I don’t have friends, but in the sense that nobody will ever understand me. I’m not sure where everything I’m doing will lead. A career? A family? A few decades of having fun and exploring? Art? Literature? Love?

There’s no meaning to life. We all know that. But it’s not about an intellectual meaning, is it? It’s about a feeling of not being lost. So how can we create a feeling?

They say relationships are the only real meaningful thing in life. That I agree with. But god, in this digital age, even that seems impossible. You get married, you have kids, you invite your friends over, all of you in the living room you worked decades to pay for, and everyone is on their phones. Is that meaning?